Jeremiah 29:11

I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans for welfare, not for evil. To give you a future and a hope.

I have hope. I have had more strength these last few days. It has not been easy to gain this back. I am not back to the strength that I want to feel in God. I have been breaking down more and more this week. I think the lonliness is getting to me. Thankfully a friend gets here tomorrow. I'm glad I'll just have company around.

I know I have a future. I know that I won't be alone forever. It's hard for me to understand these people that settle for a mediocre marriage. The older I get, and the lack of relationship, the more I think about how easy it would be to settle. I won't do it though. No matter how lonely I get... I don't want that marriage. I want the amazing Christian marriage. I want my husband to be next to me at church. I want him to lead prayers without me telling him to. I want him to talk about God, and study the bible with me and our family.

With all of this.. if I expect things from the relationship I hope to have, then I need to change myself. This is what I'm working on this year. 2011 is about my spiritual, emotional, and physical health. God knows I'm strong enough for this. He has a plan for my future, and I am going to do His will until he leads me to that future.

Today's Food Diary:
7 glasses of water
1 12 ounce dr pepper
1 16 ounce root beer
2 eggs, wholegrain toast, 2 pieces bacon
1 glass of 100% juice
3 pineapple slices
5 chicken nuggets
10 french fries

This was consumed throughout the whole day. I'm trying to boost my metabolism by eating breakfast and then very small meals throughout the day. My water consumption is getting better. It's good down here because I'm more dehydrated.

God Bless. Find your path, and trust in God completely. He has a great plan for you.